This is a story about a Hungarian writer who used to be a TV presenter and actor for over 7 years in Budapest. He earned everything what he wanted and yet his life fell apart. That boy is me and the story is pure reality…

Cover photo by the legendary Greg Gorman

My book tells how a Buddhist family raised up confused child who went trough heaven and hell. Partying with Paris Hilton, interviewing all kind of celebrities and throwing up my dinner in the restaurant’s bathroom… I just didn’t see the point anymore. I got addicted to painkillers and antidepressants and I developed a serious eating disorder. Buy the time when I realized how fucked up I am, it was kind of too late to get out from the roller coaster. The turning point was when my beloved Mom died. I went to India to spread her ashes in the River Ganges and I asked myself: what the hell am I doing? A lot happened since then. Now I live in Tel Aviv with my most amazing boyfriend, a soon to be doctor and I am healing my soul. Finally I lift myself up to the back of my horse, and I can see the place where I belong. I can see the light in the end of the tunnel. I am not there yet… but I know that I am on the way, and the journey is always more exciting then the destination. A trip trough family affairs, sex, fame, love and spiritualism…

My book will be published in Hungary by a major publisher, Jaffa, on the 6th of November. If you speak Hungarian or you happen to be the head of a world famous publishing house and your only desire is to make me fuckin’ freakin’ rich and famous, than go ahead and order your copy: elorendeles@jaffa.hu. And speaking about serious stuff: the 10% of my royalty will be a donation for the Kids Creating Peace organization. The program is helping Arab, Jewish and Christian children to socialize trough creative games and drama, so they will experience the joy of living together in a world, which doesn’t belong to anyone and yet it’s everyone’s. One world… every child.

Hungary’s jucy celebrity magazine, HOT! recently published a two page article on my Kabbalah studies. If you’re interested in the technology of soul what changed my way of thinking, talking and living, go for it! I do know secret now: the main importance is not in fame on wealth, but what I do with it.

That’s our secret… and yours as well…

The magazine says: Kristóf Steiner left a glamorous life in the spotlight, when he moved to Tel Aviv half a year ago with Matan, his loved one. Now he is sharing with the Hot! magazine readers what changed in his life. „My dad and mum were really spiritual people and they had kabbalah books back in the 80’s, when no one knew about this cosmic wisdom in Hungary. For me, since I was a kid, the main thing was getting famous, to be on tv, go to VIP parties and be in movies. After I got all these, I realized how empty is the channel between me and the people who are looking at me: I don’t give anything for the fame what I got.”

While Kristóf was dealing with being a celebrity – what he always wanted – he lost his own, real personality: he stopped taking care of people and causes what he did before and he developed a serious eating disorder.

„I realized that being famous is a responsibility. I have to do and say things what has meaning and can guide others. When I came to Israel, I already knew I am going to visit the Kabbalah Centre, since I already finished most books which has been published in Hungary, and I found it very helpful and inspirational. When I met my instructor, David Zakin, I knew this the right way to the light.”

Kristof says being spiritual and finding God in himself does not mean he won’t go out or party again: he loves to have fun, but as he says, our material interests are in a certain 1 percent of our true nature, all the rest, what brings us closer to be filled up with satisfaction is in the 99 percent.

„My teacher called me a few times while I was in Hungary for 2 weeks, and if I get destructed he is giving me advices what meditation should I do or which book should I read and I truly trust him.” Says Kristóf, and he thinks, no one should be sarcastic about people looking for spiritual paths. „I know some people will say I’m following a fashion line by Madonna or Demi Moore, but I know how serious I am about becoming a better person, who can share the light what he experiences. Reacting on the sarcasm is never a wise thing. It’s time for us to do actions, not re-actions.”

I’m happy and grateful for my new mission what I got from the Light: building and editing the kabbalah.com’s Hungarian website. If you thought that it’s all about a red bracelet and a bottle of water, visit us on the other side of the curtain. Join our Facebook group and if you are in Tel Aviv, here is a hint… there is a new English language class starting really soon. “I think you wanna come over…”

I don’t consider myself a really old person at the age of 27, but I must say the pressure from the plastic-fantastic media is slowly taking us there to feel like we’re fare over our best times at the age of 20. The funny thing is that we didn’t even do anything before that age: we just enjoyed watching stupid television series and went for sleepover parties. If we were studying, we mostly learned about things what we almost never used after the exams and we were interested in the new hairstyle of our favorite celebrities.

Özge is such a spiritual kid!

The most things what we learn are coming to us after the ages when we are so full of energies to remember every unimportant details, when we are much less opened to new things in life and – sad but true – our brain activities are just simply nut as fresh as they were once. We learn spirituality, languages, we try to remember how to take good care of ourselves and meanwhile we think: „Oh, God, why didn’t I start this at the age of 7?” The answer is very simple: we didn’t now where to start and our parents were more busy about how to make sure that our life as grown ups will be successful, we will be wealthy and we can give the same to our children.

Times have changed and we want to give fare more than this to our children. Thank Karen Berg, co-founder of the Kabbalah Center, we can teach our little ones that no house can be built from the roof. According to Kabbalah, our desire is one thing, and that is the spiritual light. No matter what are our tools to get it: a huge meal at the middle of the night, what we can’t resist, a tongue-in gossip about a college of ours to get a new job, or just a pair of very new – and very expensive – Manolo Blahnik,  we all look for our essence of God. We just don’t know the way, how to get it.

Imagine that your children wouldn’t have to repeat your mistakes. Imagine that your little girl growing up would know that every single action has it’s consequences and every single word has it’s effect. That is what Spirituality for Kids, a worldwide program by teachers and supporters offers you, without pushing a child into a religion, what they just can’t adopt at this young age. Instead of repeating – God forbid –meaningles prayers at the Sunday Church, these kids can connect to the inner light and get to know the opponent in themselves. Above writing, and counting they get other skills, they get the blueprint of life, for growing up – what we never had. We had to fight our demons, beasts and monsters and we had so many questions what we are still trying to find answers for. Can you imagine that your own child – being 20 years younger than you are – would be able to answer your questions?

By reading Madonna’s English Roses – a Kabbalistic wisdom inspired book series –instead of playing with the Nintendo all day long, killing aliens, our children can become the light in our lives as well. Taking a child to be a part of this spiritual journey is the greatest gift what we can give – and the greatest benefit what we can get. Who ever saw a child crying in a supermarket, looking for his mama knows exactly, what does it mean to be lost. No one wants his baby to face the feeling of not finding the way to the source. This is why, I know, that when I’ll have the chance to experience the amazing gift of having a baby, I’ll raise up my child with giving the most beautiful gift what anyone can get: spirituality. For kids, grownups, elderly… maybe even doggies.